Friday, March 14, 2008
"你时机未到,多体验才做决定.你的性格不适合为他人打工
所以会不称心.找对行业后先打工学习,立志做老板
不然你会不开心为人打工的，你太好强只能他人为你打工
象我很难跟人打工"
when i read this, i have this sheepish smirk. i hate it when i have this smirk. it is the smirk that says "you are spot on, but how would U know... i dont believe you"
how could someone whom i felt like talking to a stranger, be so spot on?
跟我一样的原因吗？
i asked him back
是的,因为你是我生的,你妈也好强
smirks even more.
i dunno, but i feel like crying when he said that. i dont feel like that, i only know i got it from my mum, never from my dad.
basically, everything that i'm now is from my mum. 任性，倔强，rashess, stubborness, good at both language, big butt*yup, it runs in the family*even acting cute, those are traits from my mum.
maybe...
just maybe... i don't know my dad, that's why i don't know what i "inherit" from him
i tried, i really did, to accept him even though he missed out so many important moments in my life，even though his mistakes makes me wanna disown him
but... i've grown up without him. i live a fatherless life, i seriously don't need someone i call father.
there is no need to ask why he left,when is he coming back anymore, it doesn't matter anymore.
i take almost a year to trust friends, how long do u think i take for family?
he said more but i couldnt read on. tears just blurred everything.
我讲中你的要害吗?
你说中了
gosh, i guess this is most emotional post ever. for me, not u.
why did i post this? cuz i hate repeating myself. damn rp, new friends always ask where's ur dad.
cant some1 grow up without a dad, and still be mentally stable and not into drugs or cancer sticks, and lead a normal life? geez...
