Sunday, June 8, 2008
i've got no life.
i want to sleep zZzZz
after ig camp, i thought i could rest for a few days before going church camp in msia. it turns out i have to help with editing with juniors. i dun mind actually, because it was fun :D
thanks for helping us, juan!
i helped with the editing and i din even packed my bag... when i returned back home, i was so tired i grab any clothes that are lying around and throw into a bag.
as i was about to throw my towel in the bag, mum asked me y? then i said i need to bath? then she said there got what. *smacks forehead* right... camp to me is sleeping in wildereness. hahah!
but i'm sleeping in a hotel there la~
i hope they are able to finish their editing. because i left with some editing left to do before it is offically complete. AND the clip was over time limit. BIG obstacle. and the dead line was nearing. i left them with 2 words: good luck hahhahah!
and i really hope they can win something, because it was good. it is funny, yet teaching you something. there were some cock ups here and there, clip doesn't load well, pictures disappeared etc etc. till now, i havnt seen the offical cut yet. why am i waiting?
anyway. church camp. i'm glad i din puke along the journey from spore to melaka. i've got serious motion sickness. thank goodness i've got my mp3,i concetrated on the songs and not moving trees and lines*i think i'm gonna puke*
so smart of me to bring a low-battery mp3.
i dun like shopping with my mum. she cannot walk long distance, she don't have enough ringit yet don't want to change more, she only wants to buy clothes, she likes to bargain. in the end, i'm copped up in the hotel room for a few hours while ppl are happily shopping. grr... i bought a top and dried mango before we reached the hotel. how pathetic.
anyway, i was neutral. the only thing i'm looking forward to is sermons and going home. basically i'm antisocial, i dun talk. don't ask me why, because i have no idea.
but i can feel that something is trying ruin this camp. there was a blackout, at night somemore during 1 sermon. the speaker confessed how he doesn't like the place and everything there, there is no feel lol. then i noticed tombstones infront of the hotel, perfect location huh.
there was a big rain at night, and it caused the hall to flood till kneel level.
coincidence? i dont think so.
but at least i learnt something in this camp. many touching moments, many honest and personal moments.
the speaker is a modern day prophet*wow!* and everyone is rushing to him, asking him for prayers. i resisted at first but when he prayed for me, he was spot on even though i never met him or spoke to him before. only god knows about this because i dun speak of this often.
he told me to forget my past, those who hurt me before. i thought i've forgotten, but... actual incidents i might had forgotten but not the pain.
i want to forget! only by forgetting will i move forward. yes, that's what i need.
i have nothing in camp. i have no hp, no computer, no watch. i live those 4 days by looking at the sun to tell time. the only entertainment i have is a tv. only msia channel somemore. but i must admit some of their ads are really creative and funny. oh, i enjoyed worship and praise, so i guess that was also a form of entertainment hahah.
thank goodness there was a beach. i strolled alone along the beach while everyone was shopping and mum asleep. it is an awesome feeling, wind blowing in ur hair, serenity, sound of the waves.
during the stay at camp, i have dreams. like finally. i guess i'm too tired to dream nowadays. so i dreamt of someone is preganant. is the person me? i cant remember. then the next night, i dreamt that i hit my bro in the face, nose to be exact. i practised until i can hit him till he bleds. ehhhh... weird. i may fight with him punches and kicks, but i wont hit him till he bleds, the most it is a blueblack.
i enjoyed the last 2 days of camp.
after all the camps, i'm proud to announce to myself : HOLIDAYS r here!!!
i realised how long my fingernails are, which means i never touched my guitar for a long time. u cant play guitar with long finger nails.
all i want now is play the guitar.
and i realised 1 wk of june is gone. just like that.
but thanks, god. for everything.
